you want what you want.
when it comes to gear, myself, i've gone on many a wild goose chase in search of that size, model and/ or color.
i've generally found that these "hard- sought-after"
(to be loosely interpreted) items do indeed exist;
it simply requires vigilance and patience in locating them.
(you may hafto make do until then)
have you tried e-bay?
it's there that you just may hit the jackpot!
(i speak from experience)
have you a gear shop near you with a consignment area?
sometimes you thought you knew what you wanted until...
no less, options exist and compromise (while sometimes has it's place, when all avenues have been exhausted times o'er), though it may be a short-term fix, in the long-run, never makes for a happy camper.
you like your gear, or you don't.
it serves you well, or it doesn't.
so like what you get by getting what you want.
take the time, keep the faith, and keep searching.